The Week From HELL

This past week has been HELL! It started last Saturday. We had company over, and the little ones came running into the room saying that it was an emergency and Hunter needed me. I went in to see what was going on. Hunter was lying on the bed crying and…

Stuck Between Mothers

As an adoptee, I used to be stuck between mothers. My adoptive mother hated my first mother with a passion. She called her every vile name she could conjure up. To my adoptive mother my first mother was a no good, drug addicted whore….and that was on a good day….

Hallcunations Galore

Hunter has been having so many hallucination lately I need a score card to keep up. He has been having visual hallcinations of the green gblin from Spider Man. Auditory hallucinations also accompanied these. He came in from riding his bike last Saturday because the visual hallucinations were so srtong,…

So, which mother is the REAL mother?

Adoption is a mind fuck. So who is my real mother? Had you asked me when I was 15, I would have told you that my real mother was my first mom. She was the one who birthed me and had me stolen from her, the one I cried myself…

Back in the Blog

Ok I have been gone yet again. We have all been sick. It seems as soon as one of us got better, the other one got sick. I think we are mostly on the mend. And we have had something really exciting happen. We have bought our own home!! I…

Medication Plus Insurance Equal Frustration

So Hunter made it home this afternoon. He seems to be in a good mood and the voices are gone. We went to Wal-Mart to get his scripts filled. While we  were browsing, we were paged back to the pharmacy. It seems that his insurance will not pay for the…

Medication, Side Effects, (and Meds to counter the side effects)

I talked to Hunter tonight and the good news is that the voices have stopped!! Yay that means he can come home probably Saturday….. The bed news is that last night his hand locked up on him and today his neck locked up on him so he had to have…

I Wish I Had a Cave

I wish I had a cave I could just crawl into. I would love to have a deep, dark, cool cave to curl up and hide in for awhile.  You know a place where you can forget the outside world for a while and just bask in the womb of…

Medication Roulette

We are playing medication roulette again. I got a call from the hospital this morning. After increacing Hunter’s seroquel from 400mg to 600mg, he was still hearing vooices. So they have decided to chang his medication.  Now they are putting him on Geodon. I have not heard much about it…

Back to the hospital

Hunter’s therapist came over this afternoon. By then Hunter was just tired of fighting the voices and he said he was ready to go back to the hospital.  So Maureen, called and made the arrangements, while Hunter packed, Lil Bit cried and I got on the phone to find someone…